Today I woke up feeling super down and out. Not sure if it was the weather or exhaustion but I didn't want to get out of bed and face the day. I looked at my phone at 11ish and started to filter through the numerous starred notifications. As I remained burrowed under the covers of my bed with my phone in hand, I started texting back and forth with a few ppl. One asked if we were still getting together today and I was quick to decline as I was in a "mood" and knew the checklist of chores that I had created was going to take hours to work through. her words were brief yet expressed concern and that meant a lot to me. I decided to accept the extended hand and Kenji and I ended up going to a late lunch. It was comforting and welcoming. I needed that interaction and that conversation with friends to make me feel normal again.
Sometime we get so caught up in the everyday steps that we tend to push people away even when we don't realize it. We expect people to know what we're thinking and feeling when we don't even know what those answers are. I am thankful that my friends know when I need them even if I can't/don't ask. I'm thankful for the thoughts and well wishes and general support I have received in the past few weeks. With the charity events running my stress level through the roof, the lose of Cece has me on an emotional roller-coaster, the lack of passion for my new job has me bitter, and the upcoming family gathering has me all paranoid. I'm a hot mess and thanks to my friends and a simple afternoon conversation over Kona coffee - I feel sane again.
Thank you Angela, Anna, Chuckie, Jeff, Kenji, and beautiful baby Ayumi for a simple afternoon of normalcy.
